Day 48

12 days left!!

Went for coffe with Mark today.
I´m really going to miss him!

Talked for hours with Kari today, so long that when we hung up
it was only 11 days left.
To think that he was making plans to come and see me in my
hometown!!
His friends say that he is so hung up on me that he cant work...
Is that good or??
I don´t know if I have the same feelings for him.
Don´t know if I can allow myself to feel like that right now.
I know I don´t want to pick up the pieces again if it turns out
to be a disaster.
How is this going to end?

The days feels long and my feelings are like a rollercoaster.
It´s not easy to stay positiv right now.
Why finish guys?
And what about Niles?
What can you do when you get involved with a college?
He used to be my friend, not lovers.
Awaiting, reserved, scared!!
Is this how it´s going to be now?